Written in a haze of Whiskey and regret, so forgive any errors, typos or cliches……..Today I find myself saying a distant, remote goodbye to someone. My feelings are distinctly mixed. Sadness, Grief, anger, frustration, love, loss and a numb confusion. How should one feel? Particularly when the someone in question has been such a significant part of my life and so many others. I simply do not know. I do not wish to be callous or heartless, but I did my mourning for him at someone else’s funeral, so my loss has happened over and over since then. I feel bad for feeling anything, and terrible for feeling nothing. I just hope that those that cherished him are OK, as I know only too well that love, and that side to him, and I hope that this was the over-riding side that they knew. Today will pan out like any other day, but I feel sad that a part that has been missing for so long, will now always be missing.
RIP Dad x